Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is, his good, pleasing and perfect will.
-Romans 12:2 (NIV)
Transformed. It’s a verb that means to . . . “make a thorough or dramatic change in the form, appearance, or character of.” This word perfectly speaks to me. These past three years have been years of complete spiritual transformation.
I found myself striving for perfection that was not me. I found myself trying to fit into environments that made me feel insincere and “icky.” You see, when I focused on the world around me, and conforming with the patterns, I lost myself. I felt completely inadequate and so worn down.
Transformed by the God Who Sees Me
It wasn’t until tragedy and one terrifying scenario struck that my transformation began. Suddenly, my energy could only be devoted to two things, as it was all I had: family and God.
God is so good at meeting us where we need to be met. When the world crumbled and I was at my weakest point ever, he transformed my soul. After my aunt passed away, I managed to drag myself to church the following Sunday. Sure enough “Lord, I Need You” spoke to the depths of my weary, broken soul. It’s a moment I’ll never forget and that song is still a song that is dear to my heart.
That day at church, through my tears as that melody lifted me up, I devoted myself wholeheartedly to the God who sees me. I cast all my anxieties and sadness at his feet.
At that point, God started revealing himself to me. Realizing that I had no desire to strive to fit in to an environment that brought negativity into my life, I chose to surround myself with only positive things. This meant revealing some hard truths about myself. I even lost some friends. It wasn’t the easiest path, but I knew it was God’s plan for me and necessary to live a life I was called for.
After years of never understanding my Bible, I opened it up. I consumed anything that would teach me how to study the Bible and meet with Him. I began rising early each morning and having quiet time with the Lord. Then, I started actively seeking communities of women empowering women. Next, I found resources to uplift and inspire me.
I think God saw where my soul was and how unfulfilled and broken I was. It took a broken heart and a weary soul to wake me up to God’s grace, and to light a fire within.
Once I stopped conforming to the patterns of the world, I truly began to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. It allowed God to test me, to teach me, and to open my heart to what was important: His will.
This blog is another step in my transformation. I want this place to be my space on the interweb, to uplift, to inspire, and to create a little more purpose in my life.
It’s the culmination of a whole bunch of passions: faith in Christ, my love of eating paleo and whole, and my passion for essential oils.
My hope is that through my blog, you too will be transformed by the renewing of your mind, and lean less on the worldly.